It seems only fair that if alcoholics can have a number assigned for each day in recovery that I too as a Virus sufferer can claim this right. It seems only fitting that after 6 days of being mainly flat on my back without the copious western medicine drugs that I know would make me feel better which I have abstained from, literally makes me 6 days clean.
Often I wonder why this is the case, is it because I have a strong loyalty to the eastern way of life and if so why?, as far as I know none of my family ties me to the eastern countries, or is it more subtle than that, is it Catholic Guilt (CG) and is there a part of me that is still hung up in the traditions that raised me. A pledge to take on a martyr approach to life and be the one who can bear the cross and be slashed with the pain associated with illness.
Never the less here I stand 6 days and 10 hours later, hell who’s counting and I feel like SHIT, I have a compassion on some deeper level for the commitment necessary to abstain from alcohol, cigarettes, chocolate these items that are both harmful and serve a purpose. In my case Anti-biotics the colourful pills in the pop out packs that miraculously bring you back from the dead and grant you a bill of health, hey not me I am a purest, I am on the road to recovery, 6 days clean or Am I just a GOD dam idiot?!!
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